What made you stop being an addict?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

Is depression a cause for always feeling tired?

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

How do you confront your own family for not inviting you or leaving you out of things?

Just keep trying

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

Why do flat-Earthers think the Earth is flat?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

And I can also talk to them now.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

What are the psychological reasons behind an extreme obsession with another human being?

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Who is the greatest light welterweight boxer of all time?

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

What one thing makes someone a very mature person?

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

What does Jesus mean in Revelation 3:3 when He states, "Wake up! Strengthen what remains and is about to die, for I have found your deeds unfinished in the sight of my God?"

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

What is the reason for writing X^2 as XX instead of X*X?

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Do you think covid 19 was never as bad as it got made out to be where we needed lockdowns and restrictions?

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Has your wife or girlfriend ever been felt up in public by a stranger?

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

How do schizophrenia symptoms change throughout the day?

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

I did it in my administrator's office.

This was February 2019.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Read that again ☝️

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.